Friends That I Love…

(note: this blog is dedicated to all my friends and to other honorable readers)

It’s 7am plus something now…
yeap, im blogging at 7am something on MONDAY…T.T
and the reason is~~~~i missed school  T.T
actually i didn’t wanted to skip school…
i missed my carpool at the morning due to my sickness that kept me sleeping, then when i woke up, my carpool just left…T.T
sad case… so i had no other option but to awaken one of my family members to fetch me to school=3
MY SISTER…oh god she just keep on sleeping no matter how many times i call her-.-
MY BROTHER…i would be happy to make him fetch me to school, but sadly he has work to do at 9am, so i better not wake him up=(
MY FATHER…he would most probably be the one that will surely fetch me to school, since his the one that pays for my school fees=P but i will surely get a "set" of scolding as my breakfast..so its not really that wise to wake him up!!^^
lastly~~
MY MOTHER…YES!! my mother… she would be the person that love me the most in this world, she would do anything for me!=D (note: please don’t think wrongly, and enjoy this blog with clean mind|^^V)

So i choose to awaken my mother=P
when i stepped to her door, OMG!!
shes already awaken!!
shes actually drinking water at the desk near her room’s door…
so she asked me, what are you doing here at 7am!!
i answered, i was sick, so i didn’t notice my alarm ringing…
and i missed the carpool *cough* *cough*…
then she realise that i was sick, and my voice changed completely ( actually 80%=P)
she told me to stay at home, if i go at 7am i would be late and reach at around  8am anyway…
so i told her that i needed to go to school…really badly…
but she didn’t let me T.T
after that, while i was applying medicine, she asked me: "whats so important today, why must you go to school?"
i said: "nothing important is happening today actually, just that im the key holder of the class, and if i don’t go to school, then they don’t have the key to open the class door!"
she asked: "so there is only one key for the door lock?"
i replied: "nope, there is another one with the coordinators, but my friends will get scolding if they want to get from there…i don’t want them to get scolded…"
then she kept quiet….i thought i said something wrong, so i also kept quiet to avoid unnecessary argument=P
then she said something… : "Friendship is important, but so as yourself."
she then said: "do you think your friends will actually appreciate you just because you bring the key for them although your sick?"
i kept quiet, i had nothing to say…i was completely speechless…
so i had my medicine, and she went back to bed. i went in my room, i wouldn’t sleep…
the conversation i had with my mother just keep raging in my mind….
i kept thinking and thinking…
and thats why im here now writing a blog><
i thought… would my friends appreciate  for all that i have done for them?
or maybe they are just treating me like a item that helps them?
to be honest, i really have no idea how my friends think of me…
all i know is that alot of people hate me(i doubt it^^)
and i know all of you wish that i can f**k off or  just leave you alone…
but some of you dont know that i did alot of things behind that nearly got me in serious trouble… but in the end people still hate me…
its probably because of my suckie attitude and  my anger problem…
but i have been trying to over come that angry problem…
i get angry lesser these days… but i dont think they realize it..haha lol…
i thought of those friends that i call "brother".
i wonder if they hate me behind, and just giving me a good image on the front? i thought so much that my eyes started to feel watery…
so i stopped and i told my self,

"I don’t know what other people is thinking about,
but i know I’m doing the right thing to protect the ones i love.
Don’t use your powers to hurt others,
having enough power to protect the ones you love is enough."

That is what that kept me going in all those hard time when i had problems with my friends or other people…
and also this is what kept me form unleashing my angry all the time…

well…
its not very early now…
so i better get resting or not i will get sick again=P
kkies, thats all i can think of in this situation anyway..><

wish everyone have a nice and happy day=3
peace^^V

Clarence out~

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